Spring is here and I have left my job once again. Everyone says “what job are you going to do?” or “normally people have another job before leaving one.” but I am not normal and I don’t want to fall back into the same routine I have been doing. There is a happier way to life and I had it once. I gave it up to get back on my feet and I’m going to get it back.
When I handed in my resignation, it felt like I was stepping off the edge of a cliff. Stepping into the unknown. I had no job set up for me to go to. And I refused to tell my mom that I had just become jobless.
Over the years you lose yourself. You forget what your passion is and where you are supposed to be headed. You get comfortable and lazy and fall in love with the life you are accustomed to. You worry more about everyone else around you than your own happiness or health. I need to stop settling and get back on track.
I have mortgages, student loans and bills to pay, but I was sitting in a
low paying job with no benefits and coming home miserable. I took 4 vacations in one year trying to ease my tension. It wasn’t a stressful job. none of the jobs I do ever are but somehow they don’t make me happy. Every now and then I stop to think “Am I searching the impossible dream?” What is this ‘follow your passion’
You have to take in life, you have to just breathe.
Sometimes life throws so many curve balls your way that you don’t know what to do or say and you just have to take the curve ball and sit with it, stare at it and just breathe. Meditate on where you want to be and come up with a plan for how you are going to get there.
But hey It’s only been 4 days since I handed it in. I have some passion hunting to be doing. I will let you know how it’s going.